Highest Weight Ever: 75 kg
Last weeks Weight: 70.2 kg
Current Weight: 70.2 kg

No change. Expected worse considering last week was super super hectic and stressful. I honestly did not have any time to exercise or plan healthy meals. just ate whatever and whenever I could grab. I was physically and emotionally tired with loads of work and the death of a close family friend. Every inch of my body ached and I had a non stop head ache for 3 days.
Ive just about recovered I think but could have actually gotten back to exercising yday. But once the rhythm is broken i really need to kick myself to get back to it.

Wednesday Weigh - In

Highest Weight Ever: 75 kg
Last weeks Weight: 70.8 kg
Current Weight: 70.2 kg

Was much better with food and exercise this past week! Did 4 days of The Shred. Feel better as well.
This week is super busy and have skipped exercising a coupla days already. but going to try hard to stay on track with food.

Wednesday Weigh-in

Highest Weight Ever: 75 kg
Last weeks Weight: 70.2 kg
Current Weight: 70.8 kg

The weekend was terrible. Completely let go and binged. So naturally the above result. But I did start exercising and managed to get in 4 days of The Shred. Hoping this week gets better.

Wednesday Weigh-in

70.2 kg

I'm feeling ok about it considering my bad eating and lack of exercise of the last few weeks. Trying to get back on it. Did Level 2 of The Shred today and it actually felt good. was doing ok with the food till evening. Had to go for a meeting and got back late starving and just overate!. Today I installed the Myfitnesspal app on my phone to track my calories. Ive tried this online at Livestrong on and off but never stuck to it. Let's see how this goes.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	green tea, 1 chapathi and tomato chutney
Lunch	3 idlis with tomato chutney and chicken kurma
Dinner	3/4 tom yam packet noodles, stir fried mushrooms and capsicum, 1 chappathi with chicken kurma, 2 strips of bacon
Snacks	Tiny cup of sweet corn
Sugar	1 piece white chocolate and 1 gummy sweet
Activity
Jillian Michaels 30 day shred - Level 2
Water
about 2 litre

Tuesday - Attempt to exercise

Today I had half an hour to kill while waiting for my husband. I thought why not take a walk instead of staring into the computer as I would normally do. So I did and was glad.
Its been a while since I weighed in but I've decide to change my weigh-in days to Wednesdays. 

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	Papaya and oatmean porridge, green tea
Lunch	Fish, Cabbage and tomato salad
Dinner	2 dosas and chicken kurma with 4 small pieces chicken
Random Snacks	2 sliced toast with butter and smear of mayo. 2 tiny pieces of chicken, some mixture
Sugar	1 piece chocolate and 1 marshmallow
Activity
20 min walk!
Water
about 2 litre

Monday - A new start

Ashamed to say it's been almost a month since I posted last. And a good month it hasnt been diet and exercise-wise. I seem to have totally lost focus on my plan and generally been indulging and absolutely no exercise.
Although I'm relieved that although I havent lost any weight I have not gained any.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	Uppuma
Lunch	Cabbage and tomato salad, boiled beans
Dinner	2 pieces of sauteed fish and some salad
Random Snacks	Fried Okra, one slice bread with cheese spread 2 tiny pieces of chicken, cucumber
Sugar	2 pieces white chocolate
Activity
NONE :(
Water
about 2 litre

Been a while

I've not been serious at all about my diet or exercise or blogging. I wouldnt say Im totally bingeing but not trying hard enough. 

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	Tandoori Chicken sandwich
Lunch	Spinach and Dal kootu, beetroot, potato and egg salad
Dinner	2 pieced of chicken roast and 4 chicken dimsums
In between Bites	2 pieces of chocolate, half a slice of cheese
Activity
NONE :(
Water
about a litre and a half.

Weigh-in Monday

Yes I disappeared again!!
I had a crazy surprise this morning. But first let me give my weight update.
Since I missed last Monday's weigh in post I'll put down those numbers as well.
Monday  - 23rd July   - 70.4 kg (Thanks to the food poisoning! I was down by more than a kg.)
Monday -  30th July  - 71.2( thanks to the careless eating, no exercise and general indulgence)
Though I only record my weekly weigh-ins I do weigh myself everyday, sometimes even twice a day!! Some people say you shouldn't keep weighing yourself so often, but I find I really need it.
So I stepped on the scales in this morning and was shocked beyond belief to see the scale touch the 60s for the first time in MONTHS maybe a year even!!!!

Tuesday -  31st July - 69.9!!!

How bizzare is that?! I do feel motivated to be good and exercise this week. I restarted the Shred this morning.

I really let go on the weekend and ate all sorts ranging from biryani to Tandoori Chicken to lots of trifle pudding that I made.(how can I not eat it?)

I've been following this weight loss blog recently called Roni's weigh and its really inspiring. Check out the progress pics.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	A bowl of watermelon
Lunch	cabbage and carrot salad
Dinner	A cup of palak paneer and one chapathi
In between Bites	3 crackers with tuna topping, 1 piece chicken 65, 2 pieces of chocolate, 4 big fried anchovies, 5 almonds,
Drinks	1 cup Green Tea
Activity
None
Water
About 2 litres

High Time

Im back! And it's about time!!

I had the most wonderful long weekend with my four besties from school. Could've been better had 3 of us not been down with severe food poisoning!! It's almost as if it happened to prevent me from eating all that yummy food at the resort that we stayed at. It was quite awful for almost 2 days, the only plus side being that when I got back I was a kilo lighter! haha. I mean once my appetitite was back the scales quickly started inching up.

I've been lazy and bad since I got back on Monday. The first 2 days I just ate whatever, I was just so happy I could eat again. I even gave in to chocolate. Wednesday I went back to being careful. But I am yet to restart my exercising.

Just been feeling soo sleepy and finding it imposs to get up in the mornings.
I really want to start walking/running. Wish I had company! Lemon wish you lived nearby :(
I really need to focus on getting back on track. Here's what I ate yesterday  

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	One egg scrambled with mushrooms and tomato One Apple
Lunch	One cup of  podalanga dal and a cup of beetroot and onion salad
Dinner	Cabbage soup
In between Bites	2.5 bread sticks with cheese dip, 2 gummy sweets, 3 crackers with pate, one slice of saucisse
Activity
None
Water
about 2 litres

Weigh-in Monday

Weighed myself today and boohoo... guess what? have gained a kilo! :(
I strayed a little from my good eating habits last week but still nothing like what I used to eat. And look what happens. Sooo easy to put on the weight but taking it off !!
So decided to try to stick to fruits and veggies for 3 days as I'm going on a little holiday this weekend. It's a girls getaway with my 4 dearest friends in the world. We've been friends for over 25 years and though lives and distance keep us from meeting that often, when we do meet we can pick up just where we left off.
So being good about my food is going to be really really hard. But am going to give it my best. Normally I would just not give it a thought happily indulge in anything and everything.  Our love and weakness for chocolate and desserts is a big thing among the 5 of u and whenever we meet it almost always involves chocolate something!
I'm off on Thursday morning and back on Monday morning. So won't be blogging either for 4 days.
What I can do is try and do some walking. Cos we're going to a beautiful resort in the jungle, the perfect setting to enjoy a good walk.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	Big bowl of musk melon, two slices of pineapple
Lunch	More musk melon before lunch. small bowl of papaya, big bowl of watermelon. half a pomegranate after lunch
Dinner	Cabbage soup, 1 mango
In between Bites	2-3 slices of beef roast, Some mixture, a cup of soup rice. :(
Activity
30 Day Shred, Level 3
Water
so so

Help me I'm falling

Not been the best last few days. Slacked off on updating the blog. Also ate all sorts of unhealthy crap  yesterday cos I hadnt gone grocery shopping and there was not one thing to cook at home. So dug into the freezer for whatever rubbish I could find. felt terrible after I ate it of course. Plus I was meeting a friend who was visiting and we went out for dinner to a chinese place. But I did manage to get my workout in.
Here's what I ate on Saturday.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	3 Tannys cheese sausages, one scrambled egg, baked beans and about 5 chicken nuggets. (could I have eaten anything worse?)
Lunch	Rice, rasam, chicken masala and prawn masala (didnt overstuff tho, ate small quantities)
Dinner	Chinese restaurant -  rice, noodles, prawns and lamb. 2 wontons and a crab stuffed prawn as starters. Resisted Dessert
In between Bites	Hmm.. cant remember anything significant. couple of murrkus.
Activity
30 Day Shred, Level 3
Water
No idea. Didn't keep track.

The reason why...

Don't know why I'm feeling so exhausted all the time. My enthusiasm to stay on track is waning a bit and I need to find a way to boost it back up. I missed my workout today. :( Bad I know and ended up eating a little junk here and there.

I'm going to list down the top reasons why I want to lose weight and maybe that will remind me and get me back on track.
Here goes

1. I want to have another baby 
I need to be healthy and fit to do that. If I get pregnant at this weight I cant even imagine how huge I would be full term. Imagine being 90 kg and trying to lose that weight!! nohohoo

2. I want to be in good health for the long run.
Don't want all sorts of aches and pains and other diseases like diabetes, hypertension, cholesterol etc. all which run in my family. I HATE taking medication.

3. And of course I want to look hot!! :)
I don't want my 30's to fly by with me being a fatty. My last chance to look good and fit before I'm officially middle aged. I want to wear a swimsuit and not be so self conscious that I quickly jump in the pool when no one is looking. I want to be able to wear sexy dresses and tops with straps and halters. (I have never ever been able to)

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	One boiled egg and oneboiled potato
Lunch	1 chapathi and half a cup of dal and some cabbage and carrot salad
Dinner	Cabbage, carrot and cottage cheese salad and a piece of chicken
In between Bites	nibbles of chicken, some chickpeas and some haldirams mixture a couple of sips of iced tea.
Activity
None :(
Water
About 2 litres

Tuesday

Today I was feeling a little less motivated. Not sure why. Think I was a little lax with my food and sneaked a few bites of stuff I shouldn't be eating. :(

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	Half a chappathi and scrambled egg(one yolk and two whites)
Lunch	Chicken and cottage cheese salad with a blue cheese dressing.
Dinner	Green Gram Soup with chicken stock and a piece of chicken liver
In between Bites	nibbles of chicken, some chickpeas, tastings of pork vindaloo and rice from my lunch group at work. Three wheat crackers in the evening.
Activity
30 Day Shred - Level 3
Water
About 2 litres I also forgot to mention that I've been drinking unsweetened green tea every morning when I wake up.

Weigh-in Monday

And the numbers are in!!
70.8 kgs!! That's 2 kgs less than last Monday.
Couldn't be more thrilled.Was still too tired to exercise this morning so put it off for the evening. Went on to Level 3 of The Shred and Oh My God! Is it a killer or what? Wasnt able to do some of the moves properly but hoping I cope up by the end of the week.
Setting goals. That seems to be something all weight loss strategies advise. So I decided to set some goals too with much difficulty because the fear of failing is just so high. I've set a rather ambitious goal. But only if you dream big can you achieve big I guess.
Long term goal - To lose 20 kgs by the end of this year. (almost laughable even to myself !)
My goal for the end of four weeks was to reach 70 kg, which looks like I might actually reach if I keep it up.
Also
• Exercise at least 5 times a week
• Eat at least one fruit a day
• And of course to maintain the food journal.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	One boiled egg and one guava
Lunch	3 phulkas and half a cup of dal
Dinner	Chicken and cottage cheese salad with a blue cheese dressing.
In between Bites	nibbles of chicken, some chickpeas and a couple of prawns and 2 spoons of macaroni.
Activity
30 Day Shred - Level 3
Water
About 2 litres

Lazy Sunday

Had a really late night on Saturday so slept in and then took my mom shopping. Was too tired to exercise. Though I'm hoping all the dancing I did for hours on Saturday night will make up for it. Nothing eventful. Was so hungry and I let myself have some rice and curry. Tomorrow is weigh-in day!

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	No breakfast cos I woke up late
Lunch	Riced and Chicken Curry
Dinner	Green gram soup. (My own invention)
In between Bites	Two tiny half buns with a bit of cheese and tomato. nibbled some tiny bits of chicken.
Activity
None
Water
Not that great I think.

Saturday Night Fever

Yippee! I am so proud of myself for getting through the party on Sat night with eating only about 5 pieces of short eats and that too completely avoided the deep fried ones. Normally I might have easily popped at least 15-20 pieces without giving it a second thought. And for dinner I had one small egg roll. I did drink some vodka but had it with tonic and soda instead of coke. Bit think I am going to completely avoid any alcohol till Decemeber.

Went and got myself a haircut which is always a mood lifter and makes me feel good about myself. Also the few compliments  I got did help as well. :)

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	Chickoo milkshake (without sugar of course)
Lunch	An omelette with 1 yolk and 3 whites with onions, tomatoes, capsicum and a cube of cheese sprinkled.
Dinner	5 pieces of short eats, one egg katti roll dipped in curry,
In between Bites	Was hungry around 4 so made my self a salad with cabbage capsicum and tomato with a blue cheese and yogurt dressing.
Activity
30 day Shred Level 2
Water
Good

Mind your own beeswax!

Where do people get off judging what you eat or don't eat?? The minute people think you're on some sort of  "diet" suddenly they are the diet police. "Ahh you think that's low calorie?" "That's not diet food" People who know nothing about you. People who have no clue what you ate for breakfast or dinner or what activity you did that day. People who have no clue what kind of plan you're on! But they know enough to tell you shouldn't be eating something. Mocking your attempt to eat healthy.
And people who constantly goad, attack and mock vegetarians!! Don't even get me started on them!! Get over it people.
Anyway it's all a bit annoying when you're trying hard to do something and people are just trying to sabotage you.
I gave in a little today and had a wee bit of biryani. Yes I caved. I'm really terrified of the weekend especially the party I'm going to tomorrow. I'm going to try hardest to not eat any of the short eats!
I think I should have dinner and go so that I'm not famished and end up binging.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	A bowl of watermelon and 3 chickoos
Lunch	Roast chicken salad from Subway
Dinner	Dal and podalanga(think thats snake gourd) blended into a soup with some chicken bits. And then had the sinful 4 tablespoons of biryani.
In between Bites	5-6 pieces of cheese dosai that I made for Z
Activity
30 day Shred Level 2
Water
Over 2 litres.

I'm really bad at titles

I started out today on a positive note but ended it feeling pretty depressed. When I weighed myself this morning I was thrilled to find I was a kg lighter than yesterday! I know it still cannot be counted as lost until I have the same reading consistently for a few days. Because I easily fluctuate a kilo up and down. Anyhoo had a boring day at work and decided to go shopping for a dress. I have this party to go to on Saturday and felt like getting something new. I haven't bought anything in a while. Also I'm pretty sure every single woman there will be half my size and dressed to the hilt. But after scouring about 6 stores over 2 hours and trying on a handful of dresses that actually fit me, I had NOTHING!!! I left the mall feeling super low and depressed. But the good thing is, this time, I did not use that as an excuse to buy myself some unhealthy, fatty comfort food only to regret it the minute I've finished eating it. I had gone prepared with an apple and guava to snack on and I did.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	2/3 of a large sweet mango
Lunch	A bowl of cabbage, capsicum and apple salad with a curd and mustard dressing followed by a bowl of cut watermelon and half an apple
Dinner	a cup of mushroom soup with some cabbage thrown in
In between Bites	An apple in the evening. Half a tiny bun my mom baked with a dab of butter just before dinner. coupla spoons of potato fry. Coupla spoons of macaroni & cheese I made for Z's lunch.
Activity
30 day Shred Level 2
Water
Not bad

Yet another try.

So here I am in my nth attempt at losing all this weight I've put on in the last 10 years!
I just feel like giving up every single day but every once in a while something in the back of my head keeps telling me I can't. Today I was chatting with my sister and I told her "I think I'm going to be fat for the rest of my life. The only thing I can do is to try not to get fatter." And soon after I said that I was just so taken aback by myself! Why would I say such a thing? Why do I have to be fat forever?
Am I not capable of giving myself a healthy body and life? What I said really depressed the hell out of me.  Anyway that's what spurred off this blog.
I hope to record my weightloss journey(assuming there is one). There are times when I really feel motivated and then there are those other times.
I've read and heard a 100 different people saying that keeping a food journal is essential to weightloss. I've tried and never stuck to it for more than a few days.
So here I am trying once more.

Food Journal
When	What
Breakfast	One large boiled potato with a pat of butter and pepper and salt
Lunch	One bowl of boiled beans and carrots and a bowl of sliced cucumber
Dinner	a cup of mushroom soup and a cup of boiled beans and carrots
Unauthorised eating	A couple of bites of some dosai and a few mouths of dal rice while feeding Z
Activity
None! :( Hope to do so tomorrow.
Water
A fairly good intake I think.